I’m so sad to tell you that today I miscarried once again. I am experiencing too many emotions to put into words right now, but I did want to share this with you:
I told God earlier this week that I would praise Him regardless of what happened with this baby, and while I never imagined that I’d have three babies waiting for me in Heaven, I meant it when I said it. This song has never been more true for me than now. The last three weeks have been quite the storm, and but I can’t imagine going through it without Him as my strength…
“And though my heart is torn, I will praise You in the storm…”
“My strength is almost gone, how can I carry on?”
“And as Your mercy falls, I lift my hands and praise the God who gives and takes away.”
“You are who you are, no matter where I am.”
“And every tear I cry, You hold in Your hand.”
I pray that the God who comforts my heart will make Himself known to You as well this Christmas.
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Mandi,BR/BR/I don’t leave comments very often, but I read all of your posts. I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family will be in my prayers throughout this Christmas season. BR/BR/Anne
I am so sorry.
Having had two miscarriages myself, I grieve with you. I am sorry, but am anxious to see how God carries you through this and how you will be able to use this to minister to others. I am so sorry.
I’m so sorry, hon. Let me if you need anything.
Just wanted to send a hug your way and let you know your in my thoughts.
Mandi, I am so sorry.
My heart aches with you tonight as I’m all to familiar with the pain. Gentle hugs to you and I’ll be praying.
Oh Mandi… I too am familiar with that pain. I am so sorry for your loss…
I’m truly sorry for your loss.
Big squeeze from me to you!!
There are times when a Dad can feel so weak and powerless to help his precious daughter. Your tears are mine also. I do pray everyday that your incredible strength and wisdom continues without falter. My faith in GOD helps carry me through life and gave me peace when my life shattered. HIS ways cause me to wonder sometimes but I do not question. Please know the love for you is created by you-being-you and I wish I could comfort you like HE can. BR/ With my Love, Dad
Mandi, my heart sunk as I read your post. Life is so confusing and hard. I admire your desire to praise God through it. May he meet you in these hard days.
Mandi, I’m so sorry you lost this baby.
Mandi – My heart goes out to you on this sad day. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. Your spiritual strength always amazes me, continue to be strong thru Him.
Mandi, I am so sorry. I too will have you and your family in my prayers.
May th Lord bless and keep thee during this time. I have sent up a prayer for you…
Stength and Courage and Hope thru JesusChrist! Merry Christmas.
Hi Mandi. I don’t really “know” you, but I couldn’t read this and not say anything. I am so very sorry for your loss. I’ll be praying for you.
I’m so sorry about the loss of Baby. It’s a heart-ache I wish you and your husband didn’t have to suffer through. I know there are no words to ease your pain right now, I just want to say that you and your family will be in my prayers.BR/Kudzu
I read the other day and have been praying for you but wasn’t able to comment then. BR/BR/Know you aren’t alone!! (((hugs)))
God must need some friends up there, and He must have decided your Doodles were perfect. They must be making Him happy.